Melodrama

Yesterday's post was just a bit melodramatic. True, it gets difficult at times to stay focused on the outcome of treatment. Life is generally good on a day to day basis. I have a great partner. My job is enjoyable. Learning Japanese is difficult, but I am making visible progress. And after many stops and starts I am almost finished with my degree. So, we'll see how today goes.

Crippled

I feel crippled and I hate that this has become my life. I have to make allowances for my decreased endurance. Most days it is all I can do to get through work, let alone the daily activities that need to be done around the house. I miss going out with my friends. I make plans and consistently have to cancel them. Everyone has been solictious and patient, but I feel that I am a continuous burdent to them. Tim is especially patient. I try not to complain, but sometimes it is difficult. I have an appointment next week, maybe they'll be able to make progress in my case.